Ever go through a time where you're kinda mulling over some things, but can't, won’t or don’t seem to get any real breakthrough or progress in it? Then all of a sudden you have this day that just BAM! puts it all into perspective and lights your path? Yeah, today was one of those days – more like the past few days have been a progression of illumination leading up to today’s “aha” moment that went on all day.
Lately I’ve been really dragging, questioning, pouting, isolating– you name it. I just kinda allowed myself to get in this slump of self-pity, (false) self-sacrifice, doubt, and a lot of unneeded introspection, among many other things.
See a pattern yet?
My world revolves around ME.
Most people don’t think that’s a big deal or really a problem at all. Unfortunately it’s not that easy for me. I've set for myself higher standards. HIS standards. And simply put, that knocks me out of the middle of the universe and puts Him on the throne. Sometimes I’m so thankful He’s up there and other times I really wanna sit my butt back in that big chair.
A couple months ago I was going through some *ahem* fun situations but somehow got through it, albeit with lots of encouragement from friends and no lack of gritting my teeth. My poor flat bicuspids. The end of it all resulted in some unexpected breakthrough in unlooked-for areas. I was on cloud nine for a while, “the house was clean and swept and put in order.” Stupid me didn’t steward the breakthrough properly… okay, let's be honest, I didn’t steward it at all.
Now don’t get all concerned about me using that quote, coz I just know someone will read it and remember the rest of it and think, oh my god! She's possessed! I have to pray for her deliverance! – No. it isn't even like that. It’s more of a allowing some familiar spirits to waltz right back in.
Isolation. Self-pity. Self-righteousness. Lethargy/Laziness. Jealousy. Numbness. Disappointment. Pride. Arrogance. Unforgiveness. Hatred. Complacency. Holding grudges. All these spirits appear so small and insignificant that I allow them entrance as long as they behave themselves and stay out of the way. So of course they keep a low profile, lounging around the rooms of my heart, quietly feeding, growing fatter and becoming oh so deeply entrenched until the amount of effort to oust them is staggering. And by that time they aren’t docile little passing thoughts – no, they have fangs that lash out and sink into you when you try to correct them or put them in their place- they're fully developed life patterns.
Fortunately my Spirit has been stirring lately so it hasn’t quite gotten to that point again. After living in that place of victory my Spirit that communes with His wouldn’t stay quiet and complacent. But it still took much longer than I care to admit before I responded to the cries of indignation and desperation, its refusal to let these past cretins be tolerated house guests in my heart.
Why do familiar spirits have to be so darn . . . familiar? So easily dismissed only for them to try and creep by instead of violently warded off like they should be?
The other day Bill was talking about how Nehemiah was so assured and confident in his task that he didn’t even give his distractions the time of day, even when they were cloaked as the word of the lord! That’s something I’m trying to take to heart. Stay confident that this is where God wants me despite the obvious doubts, questions and disappointments I'm wading through.
Stay confident Krystle! God has you here for a reason. Stick with it because He says so, not because you're simply so stubborn and like to finish things. Finish it for the right reasons. Cling to His promises. Promises of deeper intimacy and higher/deeper/better/further equipping. Stand firm. He asked it of you.
I’m taking the making disciples amt this term, and of course the first class already has my head reeling. - Spiritual growth and intellectual learning are two separate things – discipleship and being a student are two different things. Disciples want to do/become/emulate what the Rabbi does/is/things/says. “In the west you believe that if you can repeat it, you know it. We believe that if you can live it, you know it.” Some famous Rabbi said that. Discipleship is not just personally knowing Jesus – it’s a community thing. If you have intimacy issues, then you're not ready for discipleship. Are you practicing discipleship? Real discipleship? In a community setting or in a solo adventure? Who has access to your life? Sit down and tell them that. Do you do intimacy well? How are you cultivating that? Are you practicing it today or waiting for some ideal situation? We are responsible for our own growth. – All that is just some of my notes from the class. Those are some tough questions. Really hit me hard and got me thinking even more, as if my head hasn’t felt like it’s been wanting to explode lately already.
Then Kris comes in today and expounds on worship and the tension of being intimate and comfortable with God and not losing that reverence and healthy fear of him. The reverence and respect we need for our fathers, which brought him to talk about fathers in general and ended in some of us (myself included) standing up, admitting we need to ask for forgiveness from our parents. Nice. Another mess I wasn’t fully aware of or ready to admit to that needs tending.
End today with Revival group. I have the flippin’ best Revival Group by the way. Totally kicks butt. Trisha brought in 2 guests, William and Crista. But first she had us all pair up 3 different times and prophesy over each other. The first time we had to say one word. I said “Fragrant” and was given “Brilliant.” Second time we had to say a phrase. I said “Cool as the evening breeze” and was given “Naked as a baby” (or naked as they day you were born, can't remember which way she phrased it.) The third time we were supposed to give them a bible verse (which is always nice coz I'm just so great at memorizing scripture). I said “you’ll be lifted up on wings like eagles” (which apparently is Ps. 91, he knew it, I didn’t) and was given “Ecc. 3: about different seasons of sowing and reaping.” He gave me a little extra and told me the reason he said that was coz I’ve been having questions for God. – thought break: I just actually looked up the passage and read it in my message bible.
Ecclesiastes Chapter 3:1-15: “There's an opportune times to do things, a right time for everything on the earth: a right time for birth and another for death, a right time to plant and another to reap, a right time to kill and another to heal, a right time to destroy and another to construct, a right time to cry and another to laugh, a right time to lament and another to cheer, a right time to make love and another to abstain, a right time to embrace and another to part, a right time to search and another to count your losses, a right time to hold on and another to let go, a right time to rip out and another to mend, a right time to shut up and another to speak up, a right time to love and another to hate, a right time to wage war and another to make peace.
But in the end, does it really make a difference what anyone does? I’ve had a good look at what God has given us to do – busywork, mostly. True, God made everything beautiful in itself and in its time – but He’s left us in the dark, so we can never know what God is up to, whether He’s coming or going. I've decided that there's nothing better to do than go ahead and have a good time and get the most we can out of life. That’s it – eat, drink, and make the most of your job. It’s God’s gift.
I've also concluded that whatever God does, that’s the way it’s going to be, always. No addition, no subtraction. God’s done it and that’s it. That’s so we’ll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear.
Whatever was, is.
Whatever will be, is.
That’s how it always is with God.”
OH MY FREAKING GOD!
It’s that last part, the stuff after the list that’s making me trip out. Epiphany while blogging – as if my thoughts weren’t jumbled enough.
Paraphrase: I never know what God’s up to. It’s okay, enjoy what I’m doing. It’s God’s gift. Whatever God does is the way it’s gonna be. I can't do anything to change that, good or bad. It’s all Him, and it’s that way so I stop freaking out about it and Just. Worship. Him. In. Holy. Fear.
Silver thread my ass, this is a huge game of connect the dots with a bright red crayon being used. Bill talking about not being distracted, which I have been by my own crap; Jason and James talking about being Jesus’ disciple and triggering even more questions to roust myself from said inner distractions; Kris talking about how worship isn't an act that starts and stops but is continual, a lifestyle and to keep your holy fear of Him throughout – something else I have trouble with; the awesome revival group time with all the prophecies and goodness that led me to Ecclesiastes 3.
Ah! I just . . . AH!
He just knows everything and it’s so true that He leaves us in the dark and we only see what He reveals to us which frustrates the ever-living-crap outta me coz I wanna know everything! Right now! I hate being out of the loop. I hate not knowing. I hate being ignorant. It makes me feel left out and I don’t want to be left out by my God. I want Him to tell me everything and why and the reasons and stories behind it all and how it was done. And I’m just so hungry for Him but I don’t know what to do about it and in all my confusion and idiocy all I end up doing is starving myself and cutting myself off from Him and stuff and people who remind me of Him – which is everything and everyone here in freakin Bethel. AHHHH!
I am so dense sometimes – and it’s always only my own fault.
Insert huge sigh here.
And this is the result of that. All this crazy emotion crap that I can't identify that ends up being unwound through various people and various messages that takes days to string together so it can all be vomited up on this page.
There, YOU read it. I don’t want to anymore. I need to go cry and talk to God about all this.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Paintings!
All 5 of these paintings were done together with Shayla Silva on January 7, 2010.
We both wrote down what we felt while painting and what we saw looking at it afterward. We only did this with the first 2 of the paintings, the other 3 turned out more for just fun than being prophetic or having any kind of deeper meaning.
painting #1: "Cosmic Paradise" (I kept this one)
How Shayla felt while painting: I felt the royalty of the Lord (hence the use of the purple). I felt the wrapping of His arms around me as I swiped the paint brush. I chose the colors I did because the bright feeling of His Spirit around us.
What she saw looking at the finished product: I see a garden on an island. It's full of radiant colors, flowers of every kind. It's just after a morning rain and there is a feeling of renewal and the smell of fresh vibrant fragrance. There is still a lite mist but there is a sense of a new beginning.
How I felt while painting: I felt his presense enveloping us so heavily. I felt I was supposed to convey wind somehow, and praise, and fun, and just ... so good. Broad strokes, texture, swirls, movement.
What I saw looking at the finished product: (it kinda came out poetry-like)
Explosion of creation in my cosmos
Swirling. Movement. Energy.
Breath of Life stirring things into being, into existence.
So exuberant.
They sing out their joy, dancing, streaking their songs across the sky. Proclaiming their excited praise.
Spinning. Twisting. Twirling. Overtaking. Exploding. Smearing. Shinning.
The angels dart about, dancing, playing in the light-songs.
Wonderous.
Perfect.
Paradise. <3
painting #2: "Strokes of the Sea" (Shayla kept this one)
How Shayla felt while painting: I felt His wave crashing over my life.
What she saw looking at the finished product: Like waves wash the sand and erase the footprints, sand castles and letters in the sand - that is how God cleanses and washes away all of our yesterdays. He is the wave in out lives, mind, body and soul and He daily washes the old away and gives us a new day with no mistakes - like a wave washing the sand.
How I felt while painting: The light blue colors we chose and the long, broad strokes were so calming and peaceful. the waves curling in on itself continuous movement.
What I saw looking at the finished product:
The thundering of the waters
curling, falling, tumbling over itself
crushing against the shore relentlessly
violently overtaken
. . . yet . . .
the calming blues and greens shimmer in the sunlight
the sound lulls me to peace
the spray refreshes me
its coolness invites me closer into its depths
once more to draw me deeper still
the ever continuous strokes of the sea,
oh how it soothes my sould and lightens my heart
painting #3: "Speckled and Spots 1980's vol.1" (I kept this one)
believe it or not these are two different paintings! haha
painting #4: "Speckled and Spots 1980's vol.2" (Shayla kept this one)
paintings #5: hum of the hummingbird
this one was given to Shayla's grandparents as a gift.
But yeah, those are our paintings :) enjoy. let me know what you think! or what you see/what God tells you when looking at the first two!
We both wrote down what we felt while painting and what we saw looking at it afterward. We only did this with the first 2 of the paintings, the other 3 turned out more for just fun than being prophetic or having any kind of deeper meaning.
painting #1: "Cosmic Paradise" (I kept this one)
How Shayla felt while painting: I felt the royalty of the Lord (hence the use of the purple). I felt the wrapping of His arms around me as I swiped the paint brush. I chose the colors I did because the bright feeling of His Spirit around us.
What she saw looking at the finished product: I see a garden on an island. It's full of radiant colors, flowers of every kind. It's just after a morning rain and there is a feeling of renewal and the smell of fresh vibrant fragrance. There is still a lite mist but there is a sense of a new beginning.
How I felt while painting: I felt his presense enveloping us so heavily. I felt I was supposed to convey wind somehow, and praise, and fun, and just ... so good. Broad strokes, texture, swirls, movement.
What I saw looking at the finished product: (it kinda came out poetry-like)
Explosion of creation in my cosmos
Swirling. Movement. Energy.
Breath of Life stirring things into being, into existence.
So exuberant.
They sing out their joy, dancing, streaking their songs across the sky. Proclaiming their excited praise.
Spinning. Twisting. Twirling. Overtaking. Exploding. Smearing. Shinning.
The angels dart about, dancing, playing in the light-songs.
Wonderous.
Perfect.
Paradise. <3
painting #2: "Strokes of the Sea" (Shayla kept this one)
How Shayla felt while painting: I felt His wave crashing over my life.
What she saw looking at the finished product: Like waves wash the sand and erase the footprints, sand castles and letters in the sand - that is how God cleanses and washes away all of our yesterdays. He is the wave in out lives, mind, body and soul and He daily washes the old away and gives us a new day with no mistakes - like a wave washing the sand.
How I felt while painting: The light blue colors we chose and the long, broad strokes were so calming and peaceful. the waves curling in on itself continuous movement.
What I saw looking at the finished product:
The thundering of the waters
curling, falling, tumbling over itself
crushing against the shore relentlessly
violently overtaken
. . . yet . . .
the calming blues and greens shimmer in the sunlight
the sound lulls me to peace
the spray refreshes me
its coolness invites me closer into its depths
once more to draw me deeper still
the ever continuous strokes of the sea,
oh how it soothes my sould and lightens my heart
painting #3: "Speckled and Spots 1980's vol.1" (I kept this one)
believe it or not these are two different paintings! haha
painting #4: "Speckled and Spots 1980's vol.2" (Shayla kept this one)
paintings #5: hum of the hummingbird
this one was given to Shayla's grandparents as a gift.
But yeah, those are our paintings :) enjoy. let me know what you think! or what you see/what God tells you when looking at the first two!
Shay-Shay time
So Shayla Silva was in Red Bluff for the holidays visiting family before going down to Iowa for school. I got back from LA a few days before she was to leave and managed to steal her for a little over 24 hours :) yay! It was SO GOOD to spend time with a good friend, and oh man, what a time we had!
We caught up, giggled and laughed SO much, had tons of fun, soaked up some goodness of God, did a few new things . . . oh my gosh, it was just wonderful.
I picked her up late Wednesday night and we just goofed off til bed time. She got to go to school with me the following day. I’m always excited when I can bring people to school coz I have such a hard time explaining everything. It’s just something you have to experience, ya know? And since Thursdays are outreach days, she got to come with and minister to some people. Our group had been asked to go to an assisted living center, really just an old-folks home. A lot of them were congregated in the dining room and a lady was visiting playing the piano, so a few of us girls sang while she played and others in the group talked and prayed and ministered to others in the room. It was good :)
We went and totally pigged out at olive garden after that. Oh man I love that restaurant. Shayla did something there she’d never done before . . . I’ll just leave that information between us. Haha.
Super stuffed, we went back to my apartment where we painted some prophetic paintings. We did 5 all together. 2 were prophetic painting, 2 were just for fun, and 1 was something for Shayla’s grandparent. I’ll post pictures and their meanings in a separate post.
It was my first time painting on the same canvas as someone else and one of Shayla’s first times painting period. I LOVE the pictures. They turned out so awesome and I can’t even describe how it felt painting them, worship music cranked up full tilt, good company, all in the Lord’s presence. Yeah, I found a new favorite hobby haha.
We cleaned up and went downstairs to eat our leftovers and watch a movie before bed- well, she watched a movie while I did some homework. Can you believe it was her first time watching The Goonies?! Total classic and one of my favorites of all time.
We stopped and got some Jolly Cone on the way back to her grandparents. Caramel ice cream and fries mmmmmmm. We ate at her grandparents’ house and I stayed and talked a bit. We raided their fruit trees before I left- I took home sooooo much citrus: grapefruit, oranges and mandarins. So tasty! The mandarins tasted so super good!
It was a perfect way to end/prolong the holiday break – with a friend :)
I love you Shay-Shay Loraine <3
We caught up, giggled and laughed SO much, had tons of fun, soaked up some goodness of God, did a few new things . . . oh my gosh, it was just wonderful.
I picked her up late Wednesday night and we just goofed off til bed time. She got to go to school with me the following day. I’m always excited when I can bring people to school coz I have such a hard time explaining everything. It’s just something you have to experience, ya know? And since Thursdays are outreach days, she got to come with and minister to some people. Our group had been asked to go to an assisted living center, really just an old-folks home. A lot of them were congregated in the dining room and a lady was visiting playing the piano, so a few of us girls sang while she played and others in the group talked and prayed and ministered to others in the room. It was good :)
We went and totally pigged out at olive garden after that. Oh man I love that restaurant. Shayla did something there she’d never done before . . . I’ll just leave that information between us. Haha.
Super stuffed, we went back to my apartment where we painted some prophetic paintings. We did 5 all together. 2 were prophetic painting, 2 were just for fun, and 1 was something for Shayla’s grandparent. I’ll post pictures and their meanings in a separate post.
It was my first time painting on the same canvas as someone else and one of Shayla’s first times painting period. I LOVE the pictures. They turned out so awesome and I can’t even describe how it felt painting them, worship music cranked up full tilt, good company, all in the Lord’s presence. Yeah, I found a new favorite hobby haha.
We cleaned up and went downstairs to eat our leftovers and watch a movie before bed- well, she watched a movie while I did some homework. Can you believe it was her first time watching The Goonies?! Total classic and one of my favorites of all time.
We stopped and got some Jolly Cone on the way back to her grandparents. Caramel ice cream and fries mmmmmmm. We ate at her grandparents’ house and I stayed and talked a bit. We raided their fruit trees before I left- I took home sooooo much citrus: grapefruit, oranges and mandarins. So tasty! The mandarins tasted so super good!
It was a perfect way to end/prolong the holiday break – with a friend :)
I love you Shay-Shay Loraine <3
Monday, December 14, 2009
Almost Christmas time
I promised to try to blog weekly, so here I am, a little bit late, but here nontheless.
We had two guest speakers, Dr. Michael Brown two days two weeks ago. I doubt I'd be able to do him justice, so if you'd like to know more about him, here's his website: askdrbrown.org
and this last week we had guest speaker Sy Rogers on friday. ( syrogers.com ) I got to hear him speak last year a bit longer and more in depth so I was super excited that he was coming back this year, even if it would be the same message for a shorter time period. Sy shares his testimony of coming out of homosexuality and how he has stayed on the path with his walk with God in a world that tempts you to do otherwise. It's a moving testimony and an awesome and eye-opening approach to witnessing and loving those with differing lifestyles. I encourage you to purchase as much of his material as possible! On top of all the goodness in it he makes it easy to listen to - he's very entertaining!
There's one more short week of school before Christmas/New year's break. I'm going to drive down to LA and stay with my cousin Tammy, her husband Kris and their two kids, Michael and Samuel. My Grandparents and Uncle Todd also live in the LA area so I'll get to spend time with them as well. I'm excited to spend a little time outside of Redding and have fun with family :)
On the note of travel, I have my second missions meeting tomorrow night. I'm STILL so super excited about my mission trip to Nicaragua I can't even explain it. I'll keep ya'll informed on how the meeting goes.
I think that's all for now. If I don't managed to blog before Christmas, Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!
~Krystle
We had two guest speakers, Dr. Michael Brown two days two weeks ago. I doubt I'd be able to do him justice, so if you'd like to know more about him, here's his website: askdrbrown.org
and this last week we had guest speaker Sy Rogers on friday. ( syrogers.com ) I got to hear him speak last year a bit longer and more in depth so I was super excited that he was coming back this year, even if it would be the same message for a shorter time period. Sy shares his testimony of coming out of homosexuality and how he has stayed on the path with his walk with God in a world that tempts you to do otherwise. It's a moving testimony and an awesome and eye-opening approach to witnessing and loving those with differing lifestyles. I encourage you to purchase as much of his material as possible! On top of all the goodness in it he makes it easy to listen to - he's very entertaining!
There's one more short week of school before Christmas/New year's break. I'm going to drive down to LA and stay with my cousin Tammy, her husband Kris and their two kids, Michael and Samuel. My Grandparents and Uncle Todd also live in the LA area so I'll get to spend time with them as well. I'm excited to spend a little time outside of Redding and have fun with family :)
On the note of travel, I have my second missions meeting tomorrow night. I'm STILL so super excited about my mission trip to Nicaragua I can't even explain it. I'll keep ya'll informed on how the meeting goes.
I think that's all for now. If I don't managed to blog before Christmas, Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!
~Krystle
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Healing Testimony!
So Thursdays are outreach days at school. My particular outreach is called "healing outreach". They used to call it "pastor on call" but its kinda been an evolving thing as of late.
Basically people call the church asking for a pastor to come and pray for them for varying reasons. But since Bethel's congregation is SO big, it's completely impossible, and thats not counting the people who just heard of Bethel and want a pastor to pray for them. And since there are so many students being equipped with Kingdom ideals and are chomping at the bit to perform miracles, they came delegated things to this outreach. Most of the requests are healing related, hence the name "Healing outreach".
So this last Thursday we had been asked to go into a lady's home to pray for her daughter. We also pray for the person's family and friends that are there to encourage and lift them up.
This particular outreach was one of the easiest to minister to since the lady was very involved with Bethel and very open to us- so we pretty much had free reign to go for it and not hold back. In fact, she was right there with us praying over her daughter! haha
After we prayed for her daughter, we went into the other room and she asked us to pray for her back. If I remember it right she said it felt like, or she'd been having problems and pain because whatever supports the vertebrae in her spine was wearing down resulting in aches and pains.
She said she was in pain now and asked if we would pray for her. Those in our group who were close laid hands on her and prayed. We asked her if there was any change and she said not really, but she knew God was going to heal her and that she felt a lot of peace.
I remembered one of the leaders in school saying something like, whenever someone has back pain, sit them down and see if their legs are the same length.
So I asked and she said that recently she'd been prayed for and her whole right side had grown out. I just kind of backed down, not really liking being put on the spot and stuff, but of course Hamish (and Candace are my 2nd year leaders) asked if we could check it out anyway. She said yes and sat down and he motioned for me to check out her legs.
Everyone else backed away and I knelt down in front of her thinking, oh my gosh, what the heck am I doing?
I measured her feet up and sure enough, her right leg was about 1/2 inch shorter! as soon as I said that outloud to everyone she jerked and made a noise. I went to support her feet again, getting ready to pray, then entire time freaking out thinking, what do I pray? what if it doesnt work? what am I supposed to do? and then I notice and say outloud. . . oh, uh. theyre even now.
I just kept kneeling there in not quite disbelief while she stood up and Hamish asked her if her pain was any better. She started to bend and twist a bit and stood up saying, Thank you Jesus, the pain is gone!
I think I was still kneeling thinking, Oh my gosh, that was so scary! THAT WAS SO AWESOME! I DIDNT EVEN PRAY AND SHE GOT HEALED!
then I started laughing.
A lot.
haha it was the greatest thing EVER to know that I didnt have to DO or SAY anything. It was all God and it was SO good :)
All I can say is that made me feel sooooo much better about my mission trip because we are gonna go after healing so much in Nicaragua!
I'm so excited!
God is so good! yay! :D
Basically people call the church asking for a pastor to come and pray for them for varying reasons. But since Bethel's congregation is SO big, it's completely impossible, and thats not counting the people who just heard of Bethel and want a pastor to pray for them. And since there are so many students being equipped with Kingdom ideals and are chomping at the bit to perform miracles, they came delegated things to this outreach. Most of the requests are healing related, hence the name "Healing outreach".
So this last Thursday we had been asked to go into a lady's home to pray for her daughter. We also pray for the person's family and friends that are there to encourage and lift them up.
This particular outreach was one of the easiest to minister to since the lady was very involved with Bethel and very open to us- so we pretty much had free reign to go for it and not hold back. In fact, she was right there with us praying over her daughter! haha
After we prayed for her daughter, we went into the other room and she asked us to pray for her back. If I remember it right she said it felt like, or she'd been having problems and pain because whatever supports the vertebrae in her spine was wearing down resulting in aches and pains.
She said she was in pain now and asked if we would pray for her. Those in our group who were close laid hands on her and prayed. We asked her if there was any change and she said not really, but she knew God was going to heal her and that she felt a lot of peace.
I remembered one of the leaders in school saying something like, whenever someone has back pain, sit them down and see if their legs are the same length.
So I asked and she said that recently she'd been prayed for and her whole right side had grown out. I just kind of backed down, not really liking being put on the spot and stuff, but of course Hamish (and Candace are my 2nd year leaders) asked if we could check it out anyway. She said yes and sat down and he motioned for me to check out her legs.
Everyone else backed away and I knelt down in front of her thinking, oh my gosh, what the heck am I doing?
I measured her feet up and sure enough, her right leg was about 1/2 inch shorter! as soon as I said that outloud to everyone she jerked and made a noise. I went to support her feet again, getting ready to pray, then entire time freaking out thinking, what do I pray? what if it doesnt work? what am I supposed to do? and then I notice and say outloud. . . oh, uh. theyre even now.
I just kept kneeling there in not quite disbelief while she stood up and Hamish asked her if her pain was any better. She started to bend and twist a bit and stood up saying, Thank you Jesus, the pain is gone!
I think I was still kneeling thinking, Oh my gosh, that was so scary! THAT WAS SO AWESOME! I DIDNT EVEN PRAY AND SHE GOT HEALED!
then I started laughing.
A lot.
haha it was the greatest thing EVER to know that I didnt have to DO or SAY anything. It was all God and it was SO good :)
All I can say is that made me feel sooooo much better about my mission trip because we are gonna go after healing so much in Nicaragua!
I'm so excited!
God is so good! yay! :D
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
The light at the end of the tunnel
My life has been pretty crazy right now because of having to move out! Oh foreclosure, how I loathe you. I really feel like I'm doing way more extra work compared to the rest of the girls, what with having to cancel everything and change addresses and move furniture, etc. And then add school into the mix and its just pure chaos. There just aren't enough hours in the day it seems.
But Hark! (haha) I see the light at the end of the tunnel!
Everything will be OVER and done with by friday. The apartment will be clean, the girls will be out, I'll walk through the place with the realator and she'll hand me the check and I never have to think about all this again.
PRAISE GOD! THANK YOU JESUS!
I moved in two days ago and am completely unpacked. Just gotta get settled into the groove of the new place and new roomies. I'm excited for the fresh start though. Everything feels really good. I feel really good. I'm regaining that sense of freedom I had just achieved before all this stress and confusion came and stole from me.
I fear this busy feeling won't go away for a little while though due to the holidays and school speeding up with the buzz of mission time approaching. I have to admit, I'm not sure if I'm too fond of the fast paced life. That, or I'm just not used to it at all. I did grow up in Fairbanks afterall, you can managed to live a slow, easy life there no problem.
Jack Taylor spoke at church this weekend, and at school today. He's great. I love hearing some of the old school power players preaching the new, good stuff, but still with their old school style. haha it's awesome. Makes me remember when my mom used to haul us around to EVERY special speaker in town!
ah memories . . . :)
Happy Holidays!
But Hark! (haha) I see the light at the end of the tunnel!
Everything will be OVER and done with by friday. The apartment will be clean, the girls will be out, I'll walk through the place with the realator and she'll hand me the check and I never have to think about all this again.
PRAISE GOD! THANK YOU JESUS!
I moved in two days ago and am completely unpacked. Just gotta get settled into the groove of the new place and new roomies. I'm excited for the fresh start though. Everything feels really good. I feel really good. I'm regaining that sense of freedom I had just achieved before all this stress and confusion came and stole from me.
I fear this busy feeling won't go away for a little while though due to the holidays and school speeding up with the buzz of mission time approaching. I have to admit, I'm not sure if I'm too fond of the fast paced life. That, or I'm just not used to it at all. I did grow up in Fairbanks afterall, you can managed to live a slow, easy life there no problem.
Jack Taylor spoke at church this weekend, and at school today. He's great. I love hearing some of the old school power players preaching the new, good stuff, but still with their old school style. haha it's awesome. Makes me remember when my mom used to haul us around to EVERY special speaker in town!
ah memories . . . :)
Happy Holidays!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
NICARAGUA MISSION LETTER!!!
Dear Friends and Family,
I’m down in Redding, California attending another wonderful year at Bethel School of Ministry. It’s wonderful to see God moving so freely here in and through us and I’m very excited and very honored to be apart of it.
God has been doing a lot in me these first few months of school. A lot of uprooting, restoring, empowering and equipping. It feels like all of last year was packed into these last 3 months and turned up about 100 levels. It’s so good and I’m eager to give it back out now. It’s perfect since we get to partner together on the mission trips with Bethel. And I’m so excited that I get to go serve in NICARAGUA this year!
Our heart and passion here at Bethel International is to raise up a generation of world changers that will be known simply for their reckless abandonment to see that Jesus is Lord in all the nations. As we are building relationships with various regions around the world one of the main goals that we have is to make the nations look like geniuses. Our strategy is go to and raise up influencers in their own nations so they begin to run with the inheritance that God has given them to transform their nation. All of our Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry trips are partnered with Bethel International’s vision for transforming nations.
Here’s some more info on the heart of the trip:
Freely we've received, now freely we give! Why hold on to the Spirit filled life you've received or the miracles or the relationship you have with Holy Spirit? We've got to give that stuff away! This is an opportunity to share God's love and release the sweetness of His presence. It just wouldn't be fair if we didn't! We are going to do two weeklong schools of ministry to teach on the goodness of God and His heart to give the kingdom. This trip will be saturated in fresh encounters. The first time Bethel took a team into Nicaragua, God said, “the mountains are open, whoever can get there first, can have them!” Each trip we are overflowing with God’s favor through meeting and praying for government leaders, invitations to proclaim the goodness of our God on TV and the radio - more and more each time. We've felt from Papa that it's time to take the Nicaraguans out into the streets and share the love! A small part of this team will split off and take an adventure trip up a river, into new villages. We'll be able to spend time with dreamers who are taking ownership for their own nation! Ministry will include: lots of churches (some that are so large they overflow onto the street), a couple of nights with Georgian and Winnie Banov, power evangelism (the easy type where God shows up), teaching people and ourselves how to get into God's presence, building relationships with beautiful Nicaraguans, and telling God how beautiful He is. We will bring our child likeness and be ready to help bring the supernatural love of God to a nation of influencers that is on the verge of transformation!!
The trip dates are March 19 – March 29 2010. The initial deposit was $165 and is paid. The first trip deadline is $800 and is due January 6th. The second and final deadline is $685 due no later than February 24th. That makes for a grand total of $1650 due by February 24th. This will provide for airfare, lodging, food and the other menial costs involved in travel.
Financial gifts may be made online at ibssm.org. This gift is tax-deductible and you will receive a statement at the end of the year for your tax records. If you wish your gift to be anonymous, please check the anonymous box. This will allow you to receive an end of year statement, but will not allow the student to see your name. This gift is non-refundable, and if for any reason a team member or team does not go, the money will support another mission trip sponsored by Bethel Church.
If online payment is not an option, donations can be mailed to Bethel Church Attn: Bethel International 933 College View Dr. Redding, CA 96003. Please note somewhere that the donation should go to Krystle Wozniak, Nicaragua Trip.
I’ve just started up a blog meant to make it easier to keep in touch with everyone and let you all in on my life and experiences down here in California and to hear back from you as well. If you’re interested, want to drop me a line, or have any sort of prayer request you’d like me to partner with you on, or just have a testimony, please contact me. You can read up on what’s going on with me at krystlewozniakbethel.blogspot.com. Or feel free to email me at alexandrite_pearl15@hotmail.com.
I just want to thank everyone for all the love and support that’s been given to me while I’ve been down here on this huge God adventure these past two years. I couldn’t and still can’t do it without you. Thank you for any monetary donations you make and thank you even more for the backing in prayer you give. You partnering with me makes all this possible.
~Love and Blessings,
~Krystle Wozniak
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